Another Stream of Consciousness

Hello, miss lady.
Long time no see.

I'm reading Wuthering Heights at the moment and I'm not sure if I like it yet...
Possibly because Cathy and Heathcliff are the most irritating people on Earth!
Cathy is a flaming idiot and Heathcliff is so damn stubborn and haughty.
They both know they're madly in love with each other so why make it so damn hard?!
Though I don't think Edgar is such a terrible guy yet....Cathy isn't good enough for him.
So why torture everyone??
..after she blatantly said that she couldn't live without Heathcliff...
She knows darn well who she wants if she would just take a moment to consider her feelings!!
Cathy isn't the only one to blame though...Heathcliff is just as much to blame as Cathy is.
If he hadn't been so rash when he overhead her talking to Nelly, maybe Cathy would have had an epiphany and chosen Heathcliff instead.
But god forbid she ever marry Heathcliff!!
What would people think?
Well, I say screw society and their darn opinion!!
----After all, in the words of Ralph Waldo Emmerson, "It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after own own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude." That is definitely one of my favorite quotes of all time. Emmerson is a genius.----
She hasn't even really chosen anyone...
And what the heck is he doing with Isabella??
That's just cruel.
And I'm not even half way through the book yet!

.....So I now have 100 pages left of Wuthering Heights and I've come to conclusion that it was all Cathy's fault.
Catherine Earnshaw/Linton.

So far my reading list is as follows:
-Wuthering Heights
-Pride and Prejudice
-Jane Eyre
-The Count of Monte Cristo
-Catch-22
I'm contemplating whether to add Great Expectations and This Side of Paradise to my list...obviously it's still unfinished.

...
ENNUI.
We never do anything in class, I rarely get any homework, and I don't have a job.
I read all day everyday and then I come home at noon and read some more.
Not to say I don't enjoy my reading, it's the highlight of my day. (Wow..that's sad)
But I do get restless from time to time and now just happens to be one of those times.
Since I have so much time to do absolutely nothing, my mind jumps from subject to subject as I ponder the many things I am ignorant of.
That sentence sounded a bit silly and overly formal, but it's the best description of how I kill time.
There are so many words in the English language that people never use in common speech -- or speech in general -- nowadays, and it's incredibly irritating to know that there is a word that exactly describes what you're feeling or what you're trying to say, but you're just too ignorant to know.
Ignorance, ignorance, ignorance.
It's nobody's fault, but it's still vexing.
Vexing, vexing, vexing.
When I watch old Hollywood movies, I'm always jealous of the sophistication of both the actors' speech and appearance...
And why do they all have absurdly attractive voices??
It's like...like velvet. :)
Oh, how I envy them...
Maybe I was born in the wrong era.
--
Maybe there's a glitch in my brain.
If I wrote down everything I thought about everyday for a year, and then published it, people would swear I was insane.
But I think that's the main thing that attracts me to people...unique viewpoints.
And open-mindedness.
Otherwise conversations would be boring and filled with small talk.
I hate small talk.
It's at the very top of my top-ten-worst-things-to-do list.
So if you ever want to blurt out something really random or odd, make sure I'm in the room when you do it.
I promise you I will reserve all judgments. :)
Not to mention a full-fledged participation in the conversation. haha.

...
My auntie comes over every friday to watch "Life" with us since tragedy struck.
I can't believe it's been two months...it seems so much longer...
I guess that's to be expected though.
The loss of a family member is never easy.
We're coping the best we can and auntie is such a strong person...
Definitely someone whom I respect and look up to a great deal.
People don't realize that my immediate family includes auntie, uncle ken, uncle pek and grandma, and their nonchalance about the matter is a bit hurtful to be honest....
But people don't have to understand how important and how he was like a father to me.
I have my memories to hold dear.
He told us that all he wanted to do in life was make a difference, and all who had the pleasure of knowing him are truly blessed and are forever impacted by his presence in their lives.
I don't think I'll ever meet a better person.

--
Part of the reason why I don't write blogs as often as I should is because I spend four hours writing it.
For all that's good and holy! :)

...
I turned seventeen two weeks ago.
How very odd.