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It's raining and our thermostat is broked. Ah, life.
It's been getting progressively colder here, but the damn whether is so unpredictable.
I have no idea how to dress for school because in the morning it's freezing, in the afternoon it's warm, and the night is colder than the morning.
My school day starts around nine and I don't get home until about seven.
I cannot tell you how relieved I am that the semester is almost over.
My work has gotten progressively worse...it's kind of funny.
I don't know whether it's because of my age or what, but the holidays seem to be getting less festive and exciting...
I bet it always feels like Christmas in New York City...with all the lights and decorations and music. <3
New York is such a global city. I don't know if there is anywhere in the world I'd rather live permanently, but...
I wish I could move my whole family there with me.
...
4/3/10
Woah, I wrote that a long time ago and never posted it.
New topics, new year, new self.
I think this year is going to be really awesome, more like it has been awesome, because I finally feel like I'm going somewhere.
The first 12 years of our lives, we're students. I feel my identity gradually changing from childhood to adulthood. It doesn't seem like such a terrible thing anymore because I feel so free...
All these opportunities are opening up because I'm legally an adult in the government's eyes, which has its ups and downs.
Ups: I can vote. I can smoke cigarettes (kidding). I'm legally independent.
Downs: I can go to prison. (can't think of anything else right now...)
I applied for the Nikkei Youth Cultural Heritage Program. They liked my application a lot so I went in for an interview, and fuckin' aced that shit! The guy really liked me and said he was going to put in a good word for me at the headquarters, so now I'm just waiting for them to choose me.
At my temple they need someone to go to Japan for a touring thing also, so I'm going to Japan this year, no matter what. It's amazing because I've been wanting to go for so long, and this year I get two offers. What are the chances...
Also, this year Gianina and I are going to Coachella for all three days. Julian Casablancas, Phoenix, Gossip, The Temple Tramp, and others are going to be there, which I'm soooo stoked about.
I became a vegetarian last Thursday, which is really difficult, not because I really like meat or anything, but because there is some meat by-product in every fucking thing. Like, ice cream?! Come on! Bread, cheese, crackers, juice, butter, chips, gum, chocolate, cereal, beer....etc.
A lot of people have been asking me if it's hard, but this is something I feel so passionate about. If anyone is thinking about taking an environmental science class, do it. It'll change your life.
My whole life I've never really done anything to help anyone but myself.
There's not much kids can do without an income and without transportation, and now that I can do something positive, by golly I'm doing it!
If I decided to become a vegetarian for health reasons or for a bet, I'd fail the first day....but this is beyond that.
This is above self-control.
It's part of my conscience, my morals.
Just to give you an idea. :)
I could really go on and on about the environment, but I think I'll save that for a different post. Otherwise, this one would be miles long.
Happy Easter and Hanamatsuri to those of you who are Buddhist!
[To Akari: you like The Strokes?? Since when have you been listening to cool American music? :)]
Monday, December 7, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009
La la lu~
Major change: Linguistics (and cognitive studies)
Possibly transfer to...: UCLA, UCSD, Pomona College, NYU, University of Chicago...
UCLA is still my top choice though..
Community college produces loners.
Not being in a dorm room really snatches an ideal college experience away from you.
I will live in a dorm room once I transfer to a University, but right now I feel so busy. Yet, I'm as bored at home as I was in High School.
My classes have gone from promising, to interesting, to "somebody kill me." Three hours is really pushing it...
The cool part is that it goes by so fast. The busier you are, the faster time goes by. It's already the end of October! Only a month and a half more and bam! Winter Break. I really like semester classes. I think all classes in college are either a semester or quarter long. Thank baby jesus for that.
Speaking of baby jesus, Christianity tastes like ass.
I bit into the fruit of Christianity and spit it out. Some things just aren't for everyone, so why does everyone feel the need to force religion on everyone else? Can't we all just coexist in harmony? Nope.
I've been exploring religion, Christianity in particular, since Senior year and cannot find anything appealing about it.
I've talked to my really passionate, intense, Christian friend and all she does is give me anxiety because I'm apparently going to hell. She is a Biblical Christian, which means she interprets everything in the Bible as the absolute truth.
I've talked to a Pastor at a Lutheran church who told me everything I wanted to hear.
But apparently he's un-biblical and wrong.
The whole damn thing is killing me.
I began to go to a Jodo Shinshu (浄土真宗) Buddhist temple with my Aunt and found a very delicious fruit.
I don't want to be labeled with a religion. I don't really like religion very much.
I just want to learn.
I'm trying to broaden my horizons and keep an open mind.
I've been trying so hard to figure out what I think and how I feel about things, and you know what I realized?
It's not possible.
There is no way you can define what you think or feel because things are always changing.
It's like trying to catch wind.
Everyone knows the basics about themselves, (what we think is okay and not okay, our likes and dislikes) but once you start getting into the deep stuff, what you say today may completely contradict what you say tomorrow.
The Okinawa Club of America has several scholarships they award to a few people every year.
What I want to participate in is the "Kempi scholarship".
There's a lot of qualifications and I fantastically meet them all.
My only question is, do I go after I complete my G.E.'s at PCC, or wait until I graduate from UCLA?
Right now, I feel the best choice is going after I'm finished at PCC since Japan's school schedule is so different from ours. That way I wouldn't have to rush to finish at PCC in two years, which I doubt I can do without failing a course or dying.
I would also get to take more language classes (French and Russian), which I really really really want to do.
Now, the only beef I have with that plan is that I'd graduate from UCLA in 2015 instead of 2013.
I have no idea why that bothers me so much, but I guess I just have to get over it.
I mean, so what if I don't graduate with all the other people my age?? That happens all the time right? I would be graduating with Karen and Jessie then! :)
I was listening to my Italian music the other day and realized that I understood a lot of what I was singing. And I'm only in Italian 1!!! This is the shit. It's a really great feeling to love something and know you're learning a lot about it.
CONCERTS:
Me, my auntie, my mom, and my sister went to see Jason Mraz at the Hollywood Bowl on the 10th. I loved him even more coming out of the concert than I did coming in. He sounded beautiful, he looked beautiful, and everything was just beautiful. At one point, he moved from the stage to the middle of the seating and was withing 10 feet of us!! It was awesome and I had an amazing time.
I went to see Regina Spektor at the Greek Theater on Wednesday and it was AMAZING, of course. I love her. I told her so when it was really quiet. <3
So many people were screaming at her though...it was very funny.
"I love you Regina~!!" or "Regina, Marry me~!!!" were popular. I chose the first one. :)
She sounded better than her CD, which I knew she would, and even my mom had a good time.
She sang everything I wanted to hear, along with some songs I didn't know and an a cappella song that was very sweet and funny about eye color.
She's fucking awesome.
I bought tickets to see Julian Casablancas on Nov. 6th with Gianina.
I think I may cry.
Over and out.
Possibly transfer to...: UCLA, UCSD, Pomona College, NYU, University of Chicago...
UCLA is still my top choice though..
Community college produces loners.
Not being in a dorm room really snatches an ideal college experience away from you.
I will live in a dorm room once I transfer to a University, but right now I feel so busy. Yet, I'm as bored at home as I was in High School.
My classes have gone from promising, to interesting, to "somebody kill me." Three hours is really pushing it...
The cool part is that it goes by so fast. The busier you are, the faster time goes by. It's already the end of October! Only a month and a half more and bam! Winter Break. I really like semester classes. I think all classes in college are either a semester or quarter long. Thank baby jesus for that.
Speaking of baby jesus, Christianity tastes like ass.
I bit into the fruit of Christianity and spit it out. Some things just aren't for everyone, so why does everyone feel the need to force religion on everyone else? Can't we all just coexist in harmony? Nope.
I've been exploring religion, Christianity in particular, since Senior year and cannot find anything appealing about it.
I've talked to my really passionate, intense, Christian friend and all she does is give me anxiety because I'm apparently going to hell. She is a Biblical Christian, which means she interprets everything in the Bible as the absolute truth.
I've talked to a Pastor at a Lutheran church who told me everything I wanted to hear.
But apparently he's un-biblical and wrong.
The whole damn thing is killing me.
I began to go to a Jodo Shinshu (浄土真宗) Buddhist temple with my Aunt and found a very delicious fruit.
I don't want to be labeled with a religion. I don't really like religion very much.
I just want to learn.
I'm trying to broaden my horizons and keep an open mind.
I've been trying so hard to figure out what I think and how I feel about things, and you know what I realized?
It's not possible.
There is no way you can define what you think or feel because things are always changing.
It's like trying to catch wind.
Everyone knows the basics about themselves, (what we think is okay and not okay, our likes and dislikes) but once you start getting into the deep stuff, what you say today may completely contradict what you say tomorrow.
The Okinawa Club of America has several scholarships they award to a few people every year.
What I want to participate in is the "Kempi scholarship".
There's a lot of qualifications and I fantastically meet them all.
My only question is, do I go after I complete my G.E.'s at PCC, or wait until I graduate from UCLA?
Right now, I feel the best choice is going after I'm finished at PCC since Japan's school schedule is so different from ours. That way I wouldn't have to rush to finish at PCC in two years, which I doubt I can do without failing a course or dying.
I would also get to take more language classes (French and Russian), which I really really really want to do.
Now, the only beef I have with that plan is that I'd graduate from UCLA in 2015 instead of 2013.
I have no idea why that bothers me so much, but I guess I just have to get over it.
I mean, so what if I don't graduate with all the other people my age?? That happens all the time right? I would be graduating with Karen and Jessie then! :)
I was listening to my Italian music the other day and realized that I understood a lot of what I was singing. And I'm only in Italian 1!!! This is the shit. It's a really great feeling to love something and know you're learning a lot about it.
CONCERTS:
Me, my auntie, my mom, and my sister went to see Jason Mraz at the Hollywood Bowl on the 10th. I loved him even more coming out of the concert than I did coming in. He sounded beautiful, he looked beautiful, and everything was just beautiful. At one point, he moved from the stage to the middle of the seating and was withing 10 feet of us!! It was awesome and I had an amazing time.
I went to see Regina Spektor at the Greek Theater on Wednesday and it was AMAZING, of course. I love her. I told her so when it was really quiet. <3
So many people were screaming at her though...it was very funny.
"I love you Regina~!!" or "Regina, Marry me~!!!" were popular. I chose the first one. :)
She sounded better than her CD, which I knew she would, and even my mom had a good time.
She sang everything I wanted to hear, along with some songs I didn't know and an a cappella song that was very sweet and funny about eye color.
She's fucking awesome.
I bought tickets to see Julian Casablancas on Nov. 6th with Gianina.
I think I may cry.
Over and out.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
"I can't think 'cause I'm just way too tired"
After sleeping for two hours, I woke up at 4a.m. and hiked up a fucking mountain.
It is now 11:39p.m. and I haven't slept since.
Today wasn't a very good day to watch the sunrise though.
The past two times we've gone, the weather was beautiful and the sunrise was nothing less.
The view from Mt. Hollywood is the second most beautiful thing someone can witness in California. The first being the sunset from the beach.
Today we couldn't see a thing.
Since no one had eaten anything, we all went to Canter's afterwards and inhaled a delicious breakfast while blurting out funny anecdotes.
Choosing a career is pivotal.
Fuck up and you're fucked.
I take college and possible career paths very seriously.
I go through periods of mental unease, in which I do nothing but research colleges.
It's usually evoked by my realization of, "...you know, come to think of it, I really don't want to do that for the rest of my life.."
...And then I panic.
My mind is not capable of performing normal, everyday tasks whilst I simultaneously think about college and my future. It's just not one of my boastful talents.
So the next couple days (maybe week) is spent in front of the computer, not on youtube or gmail, but on college websites, google, and wikipedia and such.
That is why I'm prone to fickleness.
Nothing is ever perfect, but I get pretty damn close in my tentative, "potential life" reveries.
THE POINT:
Another mind change...sort of. Surprise, surprise.
I decided after some very thoroughly thought out scenarios that I actually would like to attend UCLA as a Political Science major (and possibly an Italian minor) and study abroad in Italy at some point.
After that, I want to go to Columbia's Journalism Graduate school, being that it's the best in the country, quite possibly in the world....and I adore Columbia.
I was debating over whether or not to try to get into Columbia college, but after some deliberation I deemed it unwise. :)
I'm pretty sure I already wrote in one of my posts that I want to pursue a Journalism career.
Every year the Okinawa Club sends a high school graduate on a full-paid scholarship to attend Ryukyu University in Okinawa.
Two of my cousins did it and really enjoyed their time there, and one of them even got married to a classmate and stayed.
My family has connections with the club because my grandpa contributed to the club in some way, and my grandma knows some of the members.
So I'm planning on applying for it either after graduate school or undergraduate school. I'm not exactly sure yet.
I'm going to pass out now.
It is now 11:39p.m. and I haven't slept since.
Today wasn't a very good day to watch the sunrise though.
The past two times we've gone, the weather was beautiful and the sunrise was nothing less.
The view from Mt. Hollywood is the second most beautiful thing someone can witness in California. The first being the sunset from the beach.
Today we couldn't see a thing.
Since no one had eaten anything, we all went to Canter's afterwards and inhaled a delicious breakfast while blurting out funny anecdotes.
Choosing a career is pivotal.
Fuck up and you're fucked.
I take college and possible career paths very seriously.
I go through periods of mental unease, in which I do nothing but research colleges.
It's usually evoked by my realization of, "...you know, come to think of it, I really don't want to do that for the rest of my life.."
...And then I panic.
My mind is not capable of performing normal, everyday tasks whilst I simultaneously think about college and my future. It's just not one of my boastful talents.
So the next couple days (maybe week) is spent in front of the computer, not on youtube or gmail, but on college websites, google, and wikipedia and such.
That is why I'm prone to fickleness.
Nothing is ever perfect, but I get pretty damn close in my tentative, "potential life" reveries.
THE POINT:
Another mind change...sort of. Surprise, surprise.
I decided after some very thoroughly thought out scenarios that I actually would like to attend UCLA as a Political Science major (and possibly an Italian minor) and study abroad in Italy at some point.
After that, I want to go to Columbia's Journalism Graduate school, being that it's the best in the country, quite possibly in the world....and I adore Columbia.
I was debating over whether or not to try to get into Columbia college, but after some deliberation I deemed it unwise. :)
I'm pretty sure I already wrote in one of my posts that I want to pursue a Journalism career.
Every year the Okinawa Club sends a high school graduate on a full-paid scholarship to attend Ryukyu University in Okinawa.
Two of my cousins did it and really enjoyed their time there, and one of them even got married to a classmate and stayed.
My family has connections with the club because my grandpa contributed to the club in some way, and my grandma knows some of the members.
So I'm planning on applying for it either after graduate school or undergraduate school. I'm not exactly sure yet.
I'm going to pass out now.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
THE BIG APPLE, WHERE PEOPLE NEVER DANCE...
I can't believe I'm actually doing it!!! KYAA~!!
My mother and I are going to New York City!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!
I'm going to take a tour of NYU and Columbia and do all the touristy things one must in New York City.
This summer is pretty damn awesome if you ask me.
Karen has basically lounged around the house with me since graduation, laughing until 3 or 4 in the morning and then watching Chloe the next day.
We went to Las Vegas, my first trip out of state I might add, and it was like being in a fucking oven.
I would never ever want to live there.
We didn't get to stay in a hotel because Tina's dad lives in Boulder City, so we stayed indoors and watched Pretty in Pink all day.
The whole reason we went to Vegas was to see The Fray in concert at the Palms.
Not only did we see The Fray, but we also saw Jack's Mannequin and some other band (whose name I've forgotten) from Colorado.
Jack's Mannequin was way too Emo for my taste and the only reason I knew one of their songs was because my cousins are into Emo music.
Other than that, they were verging on annoying and their fans were a little too into it. lol.
There was this one guy sitting in the seats behind us that had a Jack's Mannequin's shirt on and was rockin' out and singing by himself.
It would be a different story if he had people around him that were as into it as he was, or even one other person, but he was by himself and his girlfriend looked mortified.
We pretty much watched this guy the whole time they were playing because it was a lot more entertaining than watching the singer defecate all over his beautiful piano.
The Fray on the other hand were absolutely stunning.
I only knew a couple of their songs, meaning the popular ones on the radio, but they did not disappoint.
We listened to their CD's the whole way to Vegas, so I was familiar with some of them and I can honestly say that they sound ten times better live than on their CD, which is really impressive.
Overall, I thought it was a really great concert.
Our feet hurt like hell by the end, but I'd say it was worth it.
There are so many great bands touring right now...I'm dying to see them all, but that's impossible.
Franz Ferdinand is touring with Green Day (whom I can really do without) and Paramore is touring with No Doubt. I want to see Paramore and No Doubt so badly, but all the concerts in LA are sold out. The Arctic Monkeys are also playing in LA and I want to see them!!!
Karen and I were going to see Regina Spektor last night, but all my attempts at getting us tickets failed. Her show sold out really fast, which is kind of cool, I guess.
I found out that she's playing at the Greek Theater though, so there's no way in hell I'm missing that. :)
On top of that, Auntie, my Mom, Sarah, and I are going to see Jason Mraz in October!!! AHHHH!!!
My mother and I are going to New York City!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!
I'm going to take a tour of NYU and Columbia and do all the touristy things one must in New York City.
This summer is pretty damn awesome if you ask me.
Karen has basically lounged around the house with me since graduation, laughing until 3 or 4 in the morning and then watching Chloe the next day.
We went to Las Vegas, my first trip out of state I might add, and it was like being in a fucking oven.
I would never ever want to live there.
We didn't get to stay in a hotel because Tina's dad lives in Boulder City, so we stayed indoors and watched Pretty in Pink all day.
The whole reason we went to Vegas was to see The Fray in concert at the Palms.
Not only did we see The Fray, but we also saw Jack's Mannequin and some other band (whose name I've forgotten) from Colorado.
Jack's Mannequin was way too Emo for my taste and the only reason I knew one of their songs was because my cousins are into Emo music.
Other than that, they were verging on annoying and their fans were a little too into it. lol.
There was this one guy sitting in the seats behind us that had a Jack's Mannequin's shirt on and was rockin' out and singing by himself.
It would be a different story if he had people around him that were as into it as he was, or even one other person, but he was by himself and his girlfriend looked mortified.
We pretty much watched this guy the whole time they were playing because it was a lot more entertaining than watching the singer defecate all over his beautiful piano.
The Fray on the other hand were absolutely stunning.
I only knew a couple of their songs, meaning the popular ones on the radio, but they did not disappoint.
We listened to their CD's the whole way to Vegas, so I was familiar with some of them and I can honestly say that they sound ten times better live than on their CD, which is really impressive.
Overall, I thought it was a really great concert.
Our feet hurt like hell by the end, but I'd say it was worth it.
There are so many great bands touring right now...I'm dying to see them all, but that's impossible.
Franz Ferdinand is touring with Green Day (whom I can really do without) and Paramore is touring with No Doubt. I want to see Paramore and No Doubt so badly, but all the concerts in LA are sold out. The Arctic Monkeys are also playing in LA and I want to see them!!!
Karen and I were going to see Regina Spektor last night, but all my attempts at getting us tickets failed. Her show sold out really fast, which is kind of cool, I guess.
I found out that she's playing at the Greek Theater though, so there's no way in hell I'm missing that. :)
On top of that, Auntie, my Mom, Sarah, and I are going to see Jason Mraz in October!!! AHHHH!!!
Friday, June 26, 2009
EXTRA! EXTRA! READ ALL ABOUT IT!!!
I'm watching Conan O'Brien get violated by Bruno and it's hilarious.
Conan is such a good sport, unlike eminem. Stupid prick.
I changed my mind once again about college, but I believe everyone is tired of my "career ping pong" as Tomoe put it, so I'm going to cut to the chase: PCC, NYU, Journalism/International Relations double major, (study abroad in Italy), Columbia's Journalism Grad school.
I took my math and english placement tests and did better than I thought I would.
I got the highest level of english and reading and placed in the transferable credit math classes, which was my only concern. The person who gave me my score said that I could choose between College Algebra and Trigonometry. I think I'm going with trig, but I have to wait to see what my counselor says before I make any decisions. It was pretty damn exciting though. It was the first time I was on PCC's campus...it's really nice. I dig it. :)
While me and Gianina were getting Seattle's Best, I heard the girl in front of us talking about Michael Jackson and I heard her say something about Cardiac Arrest...
It's so surreal...I still can't believe the King of Pop is no more.
And what's sadder is he was working on a comeback...
And Farrah Fawcett too. Fu~ck. Why is everyone dying?
I love The Strokes.
Julian Casablancas has just about the coolest name EVER and hello~nurse!
His name is on par with Valentino Rossi and that's saying a lot.
Julian Casablancas also has the sexiest voice I've ever heard...it's utterly orgasmic. :)
I found out today that he's married and my heart literally lurched in my chest.
What the fuck is up with that?!
It's not like I thought we were going to get married or anything, I just adore him. He's the type of person Karen and I would classify as, "...I'd marry him".
On top of that, he was born in 1978.
He's fucking 13 years older than me and here I am fake crying over the knowledge that he has a wife...
That's a bit crazy, no? What am I, fourteen?
I guess the teenager in me isn't completely gone yet.
How fucking sad.
But whatever. That's awesome he's married. No one should have to be all alone...everybody needs somebody.
Earlier I was playing with these two cats outside and I got this strange feeling...a touching feeling almost.
The white one came up to me no problem and was really friendly. It didn't run away when I tried to pet it and followed me home, so I gave it left-over chicken from dinner.
Shortly after, the gray one cautiously tagged along, but kept a safe distance.
They stayed really close to each other the whole time, but the gray one never came up to me. It just sat in the bushes and stared. It was kind of creepy.
When one moved, the other mimicked and they watched each other and "talked" to each other a lot.
Watching them, I felt really happy all of a sudden...
It's in life's nature to love and be loved, to want to love and be loved.
I realized this watching two cats at 11 o'clock at night. HAHA. I sound like a fucking psychopath.
I'm in no rush to find a boyfriend to hang all over and annoy.
I actually don't want one at the moment.
I want to think about what I want to do with my life and get a little more comfortable in my own skin...
Only after I do that will I be able to love someone and give them the attention they rightly deserve.
Until then...
I forget how much I miss Karen all the time.
I can laugh really hard for a whole year and never really laugh until she comes to visit me in the summer.
It's the type of laughter that has the ability to overpower any adversity one might encounter, any sadness that one would like to bury.
The prescription is laughter, but it's the person causing it that's the real remedy.
A nonjudgmental, genuine human being. :)
If you don't have anything nice to say, come sit by me.
That's something that people search for their whole lives and might never find, and here I've got it without doing shit.
..And that, my friend, is what I give thanks for at Thanksgiving. That and my beautiful family.
I think I've rambled enough now.
That's all folks.
Conan is such a good sport, unlike eminem. Stupid prick.
I changed my mind once again about college, but I believe everyone is tired of my "career ping pong" as Tomoe put it, so I'm going to cut to the chase: PCC, NYU, Journalism/International Relations double major, (study abroad in Italy), Columbia's Journalism Grad school.
I took my math and english placement tests and did better than I thought I would.
I got the highest level of english and reading and placed in the transferable credit math classes, which was my only concern. The person who gave me my score said that I could choose between College Algebra and Trigonometry. I think I'm going with trig, but I have to wait to see what my counselor says before I make any decisions. It was pretty damn exciting though. It was the first time I was on PCC's campus...it's really nice. I dig it. :)
While me and Gianina were getting Seattle's Best, I heard the girl in front of us talking about Michael Jackson and I heard her say something about Cardiac Arrest...
It's so surreal...I still can't believe the King of Pop is no more.
And what's sadder is he was working on a comeback...
And Farrah Fawcett too. Fu~ck. Why is everyone dying?
I love The Strokes.
Julian Casablancas has just about the coolest name EVER and hello~nurse!
His name is on par with Valentino Rossi and that's saying a lot.
Julian Casablancas also has the sexiest voice I've ever heard...it's utterly orgasmic. :)
I found out today that he's married and my heart literally lurched in my chest.
What the fuck is up with that?!
It's not like I thought we were going to get married or anything, I just adore him. He's the type of person Karen and I would classify as, "...I'd marry him".
On top of that, he was born in 1978.
He's fucking 13 years older than me and here I am fake crying over the knowledge that he has a wife...
That's a bit crazy, no? What am I, fourteen?
I guess the teenager in me isn't completely gone yet.
How fucking sad.
But whatever. That's awesome he's married. No one should have to be all alone...everybody needs somebody.
Earlier I was playing with these two cats outside and I got this strange feeling...a touching feeling almost.
The white one came up to me no problem and was really friendly. It didn't run away when I tried to pet it and followed me home, so I gave it left-over chicken from dinner.
Shortly after, the gray one cautiously tagged along, but kept a safe distance.
They stayed really close to each other the whole time, but the gray one never came up to me. It just sat in the bushes and stared. It was kind of creepy.
When one moved, the other mimicked and they watched each other and "talked" to each other a lot.
Watching them, I felt really happy all of a sudden...
It's in life's nature to love and be loved, to want to love and be loved.
I realized this watching two cats at 11 o'clock at night. HAHA. I sound like a fucking psychopath.
I'm in no rush to find a boyfriend to hang all over and annoy.
I actually don't want one at the moment.
I want to think about what I want to do with my life and get a little more comfortable in my own skin...
Only after I do that will I be able to love someone and give them the attention they rightly deserve.
Until then...
I forget how much I miss Karen all the time.
I can laugh really hard for a whole year and never really laugh until she comes to visit me in the summer.
It's the type of laughter that has the ability to overpower any adversity one might encounter, any sadness that one would like to bury.
The prescription is laughter, but it's the person causing it that's the real remedy.
A nonjudgmental, genuine human being. :)
If you don't have anything nice to say, come sit by me.
That's something that people search for their whole lives and might never find, and here I've got it without doing shit.
..And that, my friend, is what I give thanks for at Thanksgiving. That and my beautiful family.
I think I've rambled enough now.
That's all folks.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
College
We have seven weeks of school left.
Oh my damn.
I really can't believe it...it all seems very surreal.
I've had the same job for 12 years now (well, my whole life really) and it's really scary thinking that I don't have to continue.
I could stop going to school for the rest of my life.
Not that I'm going to...it's just the feeling that I can if I wanted to.
I sort of had a break down a month ago about college and majors, but I'm alright now.
I don't really feel like going into it because one, it would take to long, and two, it would be very boring.
Conclusion: I'm going to be a diplomat for the United Nations. I'm (hopefully) going to go to UCLA for a Global Studies major and then Columbia for their International Relations Graduate School.
It's pretty ambitious, but a dream isn't a real dream unless it kicks your ass on the way there.
So that's what's up with that.
...
I've started listening to Anti-folk music, which is absolutely brilliant!!
I really need to get a job so I can go see these people in concert!!!
Speaking of which, I really wanted to go to the Coachella, but the tickets are so damn expensive!
But, it's okay because I'll go eventually.
I'm really eager to "grow-up" and drive and work and begin my career, but I really don't...
It's a pretty paradox.
I realized my whole problem is how my parents will look at me: I won't be a kid anymore, which really upsets me for some odd reason.
I wish life was longer.
I don't want immortality, I just want a little more time...and a guarantee I'll see the people I want to see eventually.
Unfortunately, that's something we're not meant to know.
Oh my damn.
I really can't believe it...it all seems very surreal.
I've had the same job for 12 years now (well, my whole life really) and it's really scary thinking that I don't have to continue.
I could stop going to school for the rest of my life.
Not that I'm going to...it's just the feeling that I can if I wanted to.
I sort of had a break down a month ago about college and majors, but I'm alright now.
I don't really feel like going into it because one, it would take to long, and two, it would be very boring.
Conclusion: I'm going to be a diplomat for the United Nations. I'm (hopefully) going to go to UCLA for a Global Studies major and then Columbia for their International Relations Graduate School.
It's pretty ambitious, but a dream isn't a real dream unless it kicks your ass on the way there.
So that's what's up with that.
...
I've started listening to Anti-folk music, which is absolutely brilliant!!
I really need to get a job so I can go see these people in concert!!!
Speaking of which, I really wanted to go to the Coachella, but the tickets are so damn expensive!
But, it's okay because I'll go eventually.
I'm really eager to "grow-up" and drive and work and begin my career, but I really don't...
It's a pretty paradox.
I realized my whole problem is how my parents will look at me: I won't be a kid anymore, which really upsets me for some odd reason.
I wish life was longer.
I don't want immortality, I just want a little more time...and a guarantee I'll see the people I want to see eventually.
Unfortunately, that's something we're not meant to know.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Confession #1
I liked the idea of this when I saw Emiri do it, and so I'm stealing it from you kid.
I despise the telephone.
It's not that I don't like talking to people, it's just that people are so damn persistent and nosy!!
Telemarketers, for example, like to call numerous times throughout the week (and sometimes during the same day) to bug the living hell out of you.
Yes, I understand you need to do your job to bring home the bacon.
Why not try McDonalds? You don't have to bother anyone there.
I mean, does anyone actually listen to telemarketers?
I realize that a majority of you will say no, so I usually try to be a bit cordial when I tell them to leave me the hell alone.
This lady the other day called from 'Vonage' saying that our number was chosen for a free trial for a month or so.
She kept asking me questions about our internet, so I assumed she was talking about a free internet thing.
(You know what they say about people who assume...)
Then when she started selling her product, which I later found out to be a telephone connection, I was really confused and started mouthing off to the women.
For one thing, I had to stop reading Watchmen (which I finished yesterday and it was AMAZING) to answer the stupid phone.
And secondly, I actually had to talk to someone...a real person that I can't just hang up on.
Naturally, I was a little annoyed.
So then this lady started acting like she was "better than thou" and laughed very sardonically and said, "Ma'am. Vonage. Haven't you seen any commercials on TV? We provide telephone service."
Damn condescending saleswomen!!
You assume that because I own a telephone, it's a given that I watch TV all the frickin' time??
What if I was blind?! And my TV had no sound?!
Oh my....I should have said that.
I should have been like, "Considering I'm blind and my TV speakers are broken, no, I haven't seen or heard anything about Vonage. I don't know how you sleep at night."
I ended up saying, "I'm in no position and don't have the liberty to agree to anything because I'm seventeen", and then said goodbye very rudely.
My problem isn't only with telemarketers.
It's just with people in general.
I don't have the patience to talk to people on the phone without offending them (The people reading this blog are excluded from this).
It's not my fault I was preoccupied before they called.
That's the beauty of the internet: you can say all that you need to say without having to bullshit anything and you can choose when to answer.
Also, emails don't have a ringer.
I don't even like making calls.
I feel like I'm bothering the people I call and imagine that if they feel the same as I do, they wouldn't want me to call.
On the other hand, when you get phone calls, you feel wanted.
It's a pretty little paradox.
I'm pretty old fashioned and romantic so certain aspects of technology tend to irritate me...a lot.
I despise the telephone.
It's not that I don't like talking to people, it's just that people are so damn persistent and nosy!!
Telemarketers, for example, like to call numerous times throughout the week (and sometimes during the same day) to bug the living hell out of you.
Yes, I understand you need to do your job to bring home the bacon.
Why not try McDonalds? You don't have to bother anyone there.
I mean, does anyone actually listen to telemarketers?
I realize that a majority of you will say no, so I usually try to be a bit cordial when I tell them to leave me the hell alone.
This lady the other day called from 'Vonage' saying that our number was chosen for a free trial for a month or so.
She kept asking me questions about our internet, so I assumed she was talking about a free internet thing.
(You know what they say about people who assume...)
Then when she started selling her product, which I later found out to be a telephone connection, I was really confused and started mouthing off to the women.
For one thing, I had to stop reading Watchmen (which I finished yesterday and it was AMAZING) to answer the stupid phone.
And secondly, I actually had to talk to someone...a real person that I can't just hang up on.
Naturally, I was a little annoyed.
So then this lady started acting like she was "better than thou" and laughed very sardonically and said, "Ma'am. Vonage. Haven't you seen any commercials on TV? We provide telephone service."
Damn condescending saleswomen!!
You assume that because I own a telephone, it's a given that I watch TV all the frickin' time??
What if I was blind?! And my TV had no sound?!
Oh my....I should have said that.
I should have been like, "Considering I'm blind and my TV speakers are broken, no, I haven't seen or heard anything about Vonage. I don't know how you sleep at night."
I ended up saying, "I'm in no position and don't have the liberty to agree to anything because I'm seventeen", and then said goodbye very rudely.
My problem isn't only with telemarketers.
It's just with people in general.
I don't have the patience to talk to people on the phone without offending them (The people reading this blog are excluded from this).
It's not my fault I was preoccupied before they called.
That's the beauty of the internet: you can say all that you need to say without having to bullshit anything and you can choose when to answer.
Also, emails don't have a ringer.
I don't even like making calls.
I feel like I'm bothering the people I call and imagine that if they feel the same as I do, they wouldn't want me to call.
On the other hand, when you get phone calls, you feel wanted.
It's a pretty little paradox.
I'm pretty old fashioned and romantic so certain aspects of technology tend to irritate me...a lot.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
25 Facts About Yours Truly
1. I'm multiracial!! Breakdown: Japanese/Okinawan, Dutch, and English. Thankfully my dad isn't one of those white kids who are just about every European race in existence.
2. I was raised entirely in a Japanese household/enviornment, but I'm the only one out of my siblings that can actually speak the language.
3. I wanted to be a singer from 6th grade up until last year. When I was younger, I used to sit on the hallway floor and pop my cassette tape I recorded of the backstreet boys off the radio in my tape-player and do interpretive dance while singing along with the music. From 8th grade to 11th grade, I sang along (somewhat obnoxiously) to Japanese, Italian, and American music in my brother's room. His room is the "computer room". My dad would come check on me from time to time because he thought I was hurt and calling for help.
4. My shortest obsession lasted five weeks: Twilight.
5. I aspire to be a Translator/Public Relations/Journalist/Editor for fiction novels. Growing up, my career ambitions were as follows: Dentist (for about an hour), Veterinarian, Singer, MotoGP rider, and Actress (for two months? I still think it'd be awesome though).
6. I love languages. My life's goal is to become completely fluent in a minimum of five languages: English (check!), Japanese, Italian, French, and Brazilian Portuguese.
7. I'm a movie buff. During the summer, I went to the theater more than 20 times.
8. I want to go from Pasadena City College, to Seattle Central Community College, to University of Washington at Seattle. I'm going to double major in Italian and Communications. I might throw a minor in there if I can handle it.
9. I'm flamboyantly proud of my heritage.
10. I went through a stage when I talked to my parents in baby talk (when I was too old to do so) all the time because I didn't want them to think I was growing up.
11. Even though I've repeatedly been told that I have really nice nails that deserve to be painted, I never ever wear nail polish. When I was maybe 10 years old, I was in the swimming pool with my dad and was wearing nail polish and got freaked out because I thought I looked like a hooker/gold-digger. I won't go into detail.
12. I'm a big Paramore fan.
13. I'm an avid reader. My favorite book is The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald.
14. My favorite sport is MotoGP and I am in love with and hope to someday marry Valentino Rossi or become his best friend. My brother and I want to learn how to drag knee and go tracking.
15. I can sing 'Once Upon a Dream' from Sleeping Beauty in five different languages. Can you guess which ones?
16. I believe that there is something bigger than myself; a bigger picture, but I'm having a hard time accepting Jesus. lol. My religious views are probably a mix between Buddhism and Christianity.
17. I've known Karen O'Donovan for 11 years. We spent every second of everyday together for 6 years until she moved to Ireland.
18. I'm probably the worst mathematician you've ever met.
19. My favorite and best subject is English, but I haven't received an A in it since eighth grade. UP UNTIL THIS YEAR. WHOOP WHOOP!!
20. My favorite food is Sukiyaki. I eat it on my birthday every year.
21. I'm determined to study abroad in Rome, Italy. I want to live/stay for an extended amount of time in New York, Rome, Tokyo, Paris, and Rio de Janeiro. (I am also infatuated with said places)
22. I really like things from foreign countries. If you pulled a snapple cap out of your pocket and told me it was from somewhere other than the U.S, those four countries in particular, I'd murder you for it.
23. I'm a huuuuuge Sherlock Holmes fan.
24. My favorite actors are Robert Downey Jr., Gary Oldman, Matt Damon, and Shia LaBeouf....Robert Pattinson in that order. My favorite actresses are Kate Winslet and Natalie Portman.
25. When I tell or hear scary stories, my eyes start watering.
2. I was raised entirely in a Japanese household/enviornment, but I'm the only one out of my siblings that can actually speak the language.
3. I wanted to be a singer from 6th grade up until last year. When I was younger, I used to sit on the hallway floor and pop my cassette tape I recorded of the backstreet boys off the radio in my tape-player and do interpretive dance while singing along with the music. From 8th grade to 11th grade, I sang along (somewhat obnoxiously) to Japanese, Italian, and American music in my brother's room. His room is the "computer room". My dad would come check on me from time to time because he thought I was hurt and calling for help.
4. My shortest obsession lasted five weeks: Twilight.
5. I aspire to be a Translator/Public Relations/Journalist/Editor for fiction novels. Growing up, my career ambitions were as follows: Dentist (for about an hour), Veterinarian, Singer, MotoGP rider, and Actress (for two months? I still think it'd be awesome though).
6. I love languages. My life's goal is to become completely fluent in a minimum of five languages: English (check!), Japanese, Italian, French, and Brazilian Portuguese.
7. I'm a movie buff. During the summer, I went to the theater more than 20 times.
8. I want to go from Pasadena City College, to Seattle Central Community College, to University of Washington at Seattle. I'm going to double major in Italian and Communications. I might throw a minor in there if I can handle it.
9. I'm flamboyantly proud of my heritage.
10. I went through a stage when I talked to my parents in baby talk (when I was too old to do so) all the time because I didn't want them to think I was growing up.
11. Even though I've repeatedly been told that I have really nice nails that deserve to be painted, I never ever wear nail polish. When I was maybe 10 years old, I was in the swimming pool with my dad and was wearing nail polish and got freaked out because I thought I looked like a hooker/gold-digger. I won't go into detail.
12. I'm a big Paramore fan.
13. I'm an avid reader. My favorite book is The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald.
14. My favorite sport is MotoGP and I am in love with and hope to someday marry Valentino Rossi or become his best friend. My brother and I want to learn how to drag knee and go tracking.
15. I can sing 'Once Upon a Dream' from Sleeping Beauty in five different languages. Can you guess which ones?
16. I believe that there is something bigger than myself; a bigger picture, but I'm having a hard time accepting Jesus. lol. My religious views are probably a mix between Buddhism and Christianity.
17. I've known Karen O'Donovan for 11 years. We spent every second of everyday together for 6 years until she moved to Ireland.
18. I'm probably the worst mathematician you've ever met.
19. My favorite and best subject is English, but I haven't received an A in it since eighth grade. UP UNTIL THIS YEAR. WHOOP WHOOP!!
20. My favorite food is Sukiyaki. I eat it on my birthday every year.
21. I'm determined to study abroad in Rome, Italy. I want to live/stay for an extended amount of time in New York, Rome, Tokyo, Paris, and Rio de Janeiro. (I am also infatuated with said places)
22. I really like things from foreign countries. If you pulled a snapple cap out of your pocket and told me it was from somewhere other than the U.S, those four countries in particular, I'd murder you for it.
23. I'm a huuuuuge Sherlock Holmes fan.
24. My favorite actors are Robert Downey Jr., Gary Oldman, Matt Damon, and Shia LaBeouf....Robert Pattinson in that order. My favorite actresses are Kate Winslet and Natalie Portman.
25. When I tell or hear scary stories, my eyes start watering.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
The Grove
Good gravy, this place is amazing!! After hiking (sort of) up Mt. Hollywood (Griffith Park) at 5a.m to watch the sunrise with Auntie and Andrea (that sounds really corny and cliché, but it was really fun), the three of us went to The Farmers Market, and it just so happens that two of the coolest places in Southern California are located right next to each other! TADA~ The Farmers Market and The Grove!!
I've been to the Farmers Market before and it's probably one of the cutest (for lack of better words) places I've been to. Cute in that it's sort of old-fashioned and there are no big businesses to shit all over the original, adorable, little food stands. It's hard to find a good picture of it because it's one of those places that you just have to see for yourself. It's being cramped together with a bunch of other stands serves as a problem as well.
The Grove has a total European (?) vibe to it and is absolutely beautiful!! I had a wonderful time just looking around and marveling. There's this darling water fountain/pond that randomly does this water show...I think it's on a timer. That was pretty entertaining. :) On top of that, it has the best Barnes & Noble I've ever been to. That's pretty much reason enough for me love the damn place. I haven't been to that many, but it had such a variety!! And they were such nice quality!! It's The Grove man...go figure. Celebrities shop there and shit. There was also this Italian restaurant called La Piazza that I'm determined to go to one of these days...
So there you have it folks! My new favorite place: The Grove.
...
On a completely different note, the Inauguration is tomorrow!!! Hopefully my teacher won't be a dick and will let us watch it. It's historic for chrissake!! When my kids ask me where I was when America's first African American President Obama got sworn in, my ideal answer will be, "Oh, children, I was in my 12th grade Ceramics class and I was so gosh darn excited", instead of, "My douche bag Ceramics teacher felt like being a douche bag that day and I missed it..." My pre-cal final is tomorrow too...oy vey. I think it'll be okay though. :) Three cheers for the last finals I'll ever take in High School!!!
...
About the whole Twilightverse, I've completely come to my senses.
I could spend hours trying to justify myself, but I'll save that for some other time. :)
Thanks to livejournal blogger Cleolinda and other hilarious bloggers (who are my new heroes), I've completely fallen out.
Fallen out in the sense that I don't think that they are entertaining in the way they were before. More that they're fucking horrible and that's why they're so hilarious and entertaining.
I think it's probably the easiest thing to make fun of because nothing needs to be added to it...it's all ridiculous shit in itself.
At least I never thought they were good literature, so HA!
This also sparked my love for Robert Pattinson...yes. I love Robert Pattinson and NOT EDWARD CULLEN because you know, he's not real.
He totally bashed the books and called them out for what they are *cough* voyeuristic *cough*. And yet, those hormonal, insane, creepy girls keep screaming his name...hmm...curious.
And just so you know, this whole thing developed before Christmas and I was just too embarrassed to say so.
...
I love Paramore.
I was going to reveal this to Karen first using our ease-into-it strategy, but I got lazy. :)
I've been listening to nothing but them for the whole weekend, downloaded their entire discography (not to mention learned all the words), and am determined to go to one of their concerts.
I even had this whole daydream about meeting the lead singer (...and becoming her best friend), Hayley Williams, who, may I add, is so incredibly talented that I think I might hyperventilate when I meet her. Notice, I put 'when', not 'if'. :)
Alrighty, enough procrastination.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Movie Day: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and The Spirit
Note: I started writing this on Saturday, but I couldn't finish, so that's why it's written as if it were Saturday. :)
This day was filled with movies.
I started it off with waking up at 6a.m to go to Saturday school, which, actually wasn't as dreadful as I thought it was going to be.
They didn't make us move heavy boxes or pick up trash, we just sat in a classroom for four hours and did "school work".
This girl got scolded because she took out knitting and (either..) LeDuc/Lopez said, "Knitting is something you do as a hobby so you can't do that here. People enjoy hobbies."
So I immediately felt a little smug because I was cheating the system. :)
On the other hand, I felt a little insulted: was he suggesting that reading isn't a hobby because people can't possibly enjoy reading??
Why, that's absurd!
What a wonderful message you're conveying to your students Mr. Vice Principal!
Of course, we are in the midst of an era of technology, in which people entertain themselves with doing absolutely nothing online instead of reading books.
What a wonderful world.
After Saturday school, I met up with Gianina at the Edward's Theater to go see The Spirit.
I genuinely thought this movie was going to be pretty cool, considering Frank Miller was the director, and my hopes were high....but I was wrong.
It was super lame at some points and at others, hilarious.
All in all, it was enjoyable in a way that it was not meant to be, but not something I would go see again.
Which now leads me to my main topic: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
Oh my...
Good God, it was amazing!!
*Spoiler Alert!*
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I guess it was compared to the Notebook in the sense that both stories were told in retrospect, while giving some obvious clues to who the people in the present were, were both set in the south, and were both love stories.
However, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was not simply a love story.
(Actually, I thought The Curious Case of Benjamin Button schooled the hell out of The Notebook.)
No, no.
It was a story about life and conveyed a message of accepting people even though they're different: The whole, "even though we come from different cultures/worlds and we look different, we're the same inside" bit.
That is a really really great message in my opinion.
(Sometimes things that are cliché are actually really great ideas, which is probably why people say them so much and are thus, cliché.)
"Life isn't measured in minutes, but in moments" is the movie's moving tagline and definitely is something that makes you smile when you read it.
I was blubbering throughout the whole end portion and a small part of the beginning.
The beginning had an ugly duckling vibe, which immediately sent me into hysterics and forced this whole scenario into my head where if I was in the movie, I would play with Benjamin and be his friend.
The whole, "why am I so different?" tone makes me so so sad that I start to cry instantly.
I really hate it.
I mean, if a little kid came up to me on the street and said those words, it wouldn't matter if I had no idea who they were or if they were some demon child sent from hell to kill me, I'd crumble inside and try to help them.
Now, if it were someone I knew, then I'd crumble on the outside. I'd burst into tears the second they made it known.
The middle part of the movie was awesome.
It followed him through his "youth", while still keeping the hint of a love story.
I loved the captain of the boat. He was hilarious and said the same thing I've been saying my whole life, which totally made me smile. It was something along the lines of, 'don't let anyone tell you you can't do something. Do what you were born to do.'
And of course, the old scenes of the guy getting struck by lightning (Mr. Daws) were absolutely hilarious. That killed me.
I also loved this part:
Daisy: "Will you sleep with me?"
Benjamin: "Absolutely."
HOT.
The end half, as much as I loved it, was so sad!
When they were togther, I was so happy for them, I just about choked with satisfaction.
And I knew that he couldn't really be a father forever, but still!!
He should have been un-gentlemen like and stayed and forced her to take care of him!!
But, he did the right thing.
And they were togther in the end...AHHHHH!!
It was sooo good!!
I definitely reccomend it to everyone.
These were some of my favorite quotes:
"We're meant to lose the people we love. How else are we supposed to know how important they
are? "
"It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you."
"I'm always lookin' out my own eyes."
"You can be mad as a mad dog at the way things went; you can swear and curse the fates - but when it comes to the end, you have to let go."
"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
"It's funny how sometimes the people we remember the least make the greatest impression on us."
"Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss."
"You never know what's coming for you."
"Some people, were born to sit by a river. Some get struck by lightning. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people, dance."
This day was filled with movies.
I started it off with waking up at 6a.m to go to Saturday school, which, actually wasn't as dreadful as I thought it was going to be.
They didn't make us move heavy boxes or pick up trash, we just sat in a classroom for four hours and did "school work".
This girl got scolded because she took out knitting and (either..) LeDuc/Lopez said, "Knitting is something you do as a hobby so you can't do that here. People enjoy hobbies."
So I immediately felt a little smug because I was cheating the system. :)
On the other hand, I felt a little insulted: was he suggesting that reading isn't a hobby because people can't possibly enjoy reading??
Why, that's absurd!
What a wonderful message you're conveying to your students Mr. Vice Principal!
Of course, we are in the midst of an era of technology, in which people entertain themselves with doing absolutely nothing online instead of reading books.
What a wonderful world.
After Saturday school, I met up with Gianina at the Edward's Theater to go see The Spirit.
I genuinely thought this movie was going to be pretty cool, considering Frank Miller was the director, and my hopes were high....but I was wrong.
It was super lame at some points and at others, hilarious.
All in all, it was enjoyable in a way that it was not meant to be, but not something I would go see again.
Which now leads me to my main topic: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
Oh my...
Good God, it was amazing!!
*Spoiler Alert!*
*Spoiler Alert!*
*Spoiler Alert!*
*Spoiler Alert!*
*Spoiler Alert!*
*Spoiler Alert!*
*Spoiler Alert!*
I guess it was compared to the Notebook in the sense that both stories were told in retrospect, while giving some obvious clues to who the people in the present were, were both set in the south, and were both love stories.
However, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button was not simply a love story.
(Actually, I thought The Curious Case of Benjamin Button schooled the hell out of The Notebook.)
No, no.
It was a story about life and conveyed a message of accepting people even though they're different: The whole, "even though we come from different cultures/worlds and we look different, we're the same inside" bit.
That is a really really great message in my opinion.
(Sometimes things that are cliché are actually really great ideas, which is probably why people say them so much and are thus, cliché.)
"Life isn't measured in minutes, but in moments" is the movie's moving tagline and definitely is something that makes you smile when you read it.
I was blubbering throughout the whole end portion and a small part of the beginning.
The beginning had an ugly duckling vibe, which immediately sent me into hysterics and forced this whole scenario into my head where if I was in the movie, I would play with Benjamin and be his friend.
The whole, "why am I so different?" tone makes me so so sad that I start to cry instantly.
I really hate it.
I mean, if a little kid came up to me on the street and said those words, it wouldn't matter if I had no idea who they were or if they were some demon child sent from hell to kill me, I'd crumble inside and try to help them.
Now, if it were someone I knew, then I'd crumble on the outside. I'd burst into tears the second they made it known.
The middle part of the movie was awesome.
It followed him through his "youth", while still keeping the hint of a love story.
I loved the captain of the boat. He was hilarious and said the same thing I've been saying my whole life, which totally made me smile. It was something along the lines of, 'don't let anyone tell you you can't do something. Do what you were born to do.'
And of course, the old scenes of the guy getting struck by lightning (Mr. Daws) were absolutely hilarious. That killed me.
I also loved this part:
Daisy: "Will you sleep with me?"
Benjamin: "Absolutely."
HOT.
The end half, as much as I loved it, was so sad!
When they were togther, I was so happy for them, I just about choked with satisfaction.
And I knew that he couldn't really be a father forever, but still!!
He should have been un-gentlemen like and stayed and forced her to take care of him!!
But, he did the right thing.
And they were togther in the end...AHHHHH!!
It was sooo good!!
I definitely reccomend it to everyone.
These were some of my favorite quotes:
"We're meant to lose the people we love. How else are we supposed to know how important they
are? "
"It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you."
"I'm always lookin' out my own eyes."
"You can be mad as a mad dog at the way things went; you can swear and curse the fates - but when it comes to the end, you have to let go."
"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
"It's funny how sometimes the people we remember the least make the greatest impression on us."
"Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss."
"You never know what's coming for you."
"Some people, were born to sit by a river. Some get struck by lightning. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people, dance."
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Whats your relationship status coming into 09'?
Single!!
What color is your shirt?
Pink. You know, that random Bears shirt that was given to me as a thank you for dog-sitting...the one that causes people to ask me if I like football. It's my absolute favorite shirt.
How many showers do you get a day?
One...should I get more? You mean showers that I use to clean myself, correct?
Who as the last person you said I love you to?
Nope. I'm Japanese. HAHA. Maybe "sang" is better than "said".
Do you have any tattoos?
Not that I know of.
Do you have any piercings?
Sadly no. But it's only 4:30. :) I'm going to get at least three on each ear though.
Where is your mom?
Mama's working hard to bring home the bacon and everything else humanly possible. She wears the pants.
Do you speak any other language then english?
Yes, indeed! I speak Japanese, Spanish, Italian, and Brazilian Portuguese. (The question was "speak", not "speak fluently".)
Do you have any kids?
Nope. I'm a very good girl.
Where are you now?
Dining room table.
How do you feel?
Hungry and slightly weary.
Who are you closer to, mom or dad?
Mama.
Last guy you hugged?
Does it count if I was the one who received it? If so, then my brother, Jon. It was more of an unrequited embrace.
Have you ever shot a dog?
Why in pluperfect hell would I shoot a dog? What the hell kind of scenario would I be in to shoot an damn dog?!
What grade were you in when you had your first bf/gf?
I don't know because it doesn't exist.
What color are your sheets?
Lavender.
Do you think people understand you well?
Not even remotely, save that my six best buddies (excluding my family) know me better than I know myself. (Well, at least Akari, Karen, and Taylor)
Are you wearing anything that belongs to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
I'd have to have a boyfriend to be wearing something of his now, wouldn't I?
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
Not in the least.
When was the last time someone called you baby?
When I was a baby.
Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
But of course! I wouldn't be a human otherwise.
Were you happy when you woke up?
Not exactly.
Who did you last sleep in a bed with?
Chloe.
Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life?
Yes.
Who was the last person that called you?
Jennifer.
Where were you at on New Years?
My house on New Year's Eve, and then my grandma's house on New Year's day.
What emotions are you feeling right now?
Annoyance. Chloe is screaming.
Anyone of the opposite sex on your mind?
Not at the moment.
What are you currently doing besides this?
Eating lunch.
Any plans for tomorrow?
As a matter of fact, I do! Which is very rare, by the way. I'm hanging out with Jennifer and Christina and then when I get home I'm hanging out with Aunite.
What's the last thing you ate?
Tuna sandwich. (I don't really like Tuna but, it always sounds appetizing whenever Sarah makes it, and then I realize that I still don't like Tuna.)
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
My brother. This sounds like a dirty question though...
Are you going to be home alone tonight?
No. I have 5 other people living with me.
How has this week been?
Shitty actually. And busy.
Is someone mad at you right now?
Not that I'm aware of. No one has a reason to be, I don't think.
First thing you did this morning?
Washed my face.
Who are your last three texts from?
Akari, Sarah, and Sarah.
What upset you the most today?
Knowing that I have an essay hanging over my head that I've put off until today.
Do you want kids?
Yes, indeed! Three actually. No more, no less. :) Well...I'm up for compromise.
What color are your nails right now?
The color they always are. That's a strange question.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
A juice-it-up Green Tea smoothie.
Name someone that made you laugh today:
Paula.
How late did you stay up last night?
10:30-11p.m.
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Yes: Italy, Japan, New York or Seattle. But my permanent home will be somewhere in America.
What is the last movie you watched?
The Devil Wears Prada, sadly.
What are you wearing?
My pink Bears shirt, a light blue jacket, a grey jacket, jeans, socks, slippers, and a scarf.
Whats the thing you want most in life at the moment?
To hurry up and graduate from High School. (That's at the moment. I have many many other goals that I want much much much more.)
Single!!
What color is your shirt?
Pink. You know, that random Bears shirt that was given to me as a thank you for dog-sitting...the one that causes people to ask me if I like football. It's my absolute favorite shirt.
How many showers do you get a day?
One...should I get more? You mean showers that I use to clean myself, correct?
Who as the last person you said I love you to?
Nope. I'm Japanese. HAHA. Maybe "sang" is better than "said".
Do you have any tattoos?
Not that I know of.
Do you have any piercings?
Sadly no. But it's only 4:30. :) I'm going to get at least three on each ear though.
Where is your mom?
Mama's working hard to bring home the bacon and everything else humanly possible. She wears the pants.
Do you speak any other language then english?
Yes, indeed! I speak Japanese, Spanish, Italian, and Brazilian Portuguese. (The question was "speak", not "speak fluently".)
Do you have any kids?
Nope. I'm a very good girl.
Where are you now?
Dining room table.
How do you feel?
Hungry and slightly weary.
Who are you closer to, mom or dad?
Mama.
Last guy you hugged?
Does it count if I was the one who received it? If so, then my brother, Jon. It was more of an unrequited embrace.
Have you ever shot a dog?
Why in pluperfect hell would I shoot a dog? What the hell kind of scenario would I be in to shoot an damn dog?!
What grade were you in when you had your first bf/gf?
I don't know because it doesn't exist.
What color are your sheets?
Lavender.
Do you think people understand you well?
Not even remotely, save that my six best buddies (excluding my family) know me better than I know myself. (Well, at least Akari, Karen, and Taylor)
Are you wearing anything that belongs to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
I'd have to have a boyfriend to be wearing something of his now, wouldn't I?
Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
Not in the least.
When was the last time someone called you baby?
When I was a baby.
Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
But of course! I wouldn't be a human otherwise.
Were you happy when you woke up?
Not exactly.
Who did you last sleep in a bed with?
Chloe.
Do you think that you have made a difference in someone's life?
Yes.
Who was the last person that called you?
Jennifer.
Where were you at on New Years?
My house on New Year's Eve, and then my grandma's house on New Year's day.
What emotions are you feeling right now?
Annoyance. Chloe is screaming.
Anyone of the opposite sex on your mind?
Not at the moment.
What are you currently doing besides this?
Eating lunch.
Any plans for tomorrow?
As a matter of fact, I do! Which is very rare, by the way. I'm hanging out with Jennifer and Christina and then when I get home I'm hanging out with Aunite.
What's the last thing you ate?
Tuna sandwich. (I don't really like Tuna but, it always sounds appetizing whenever Sarah makes it, and then I realize that I still don't like Tuna.)
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
My brother. This sounds like a dirty question though...
Are you going to be home alone tonight?
No. I have 5 other people living with me.
How has this week been?
Shitty actually. And busy.
Is someone mad at you right now?
Not that I'm aware of. No one has a reason to be, I don't think.
First thing you did this morning?
Washed my face.
Who are your last three texts from?
Akari, Sarah, and Sarah.
What upset you the most today?
Knowing that I have an essay hanging over my head that I've put off until today.
Do you want kids?
Yes, indeed! Three actually. No more, no less. :) Well...I'm up for compromise.
What color are your nails right now?
The color they always are. That's a strange question.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
A juice-it-up Green Tea smoothie.
Name someone that made you laugh today:
Paula.
How late did you stay up last night?
10:30-11p.m.
If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Yes: Italy, Japan, New York or Seattle. But my permanent home will be somewhere in America.
What is the last movie you watched?
The Devil Wears Prada, sadly.
What are you wearing?
My pink Bears shirt, a light blue jacket, a grey jacket, jeans, socks, slippers, and a scarf.
Whats the thing you want most in life at the moment?
To hurry up and graduate from High School. (That's at the moment. I have many many other goals that I want much much much more.)
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Marriage~A response to Emiri and a New Year
Part One:
Oh my goodness Emiri!! We share a fear!!
Actually, I'm afraid of a lot of things, some of which include spiders, grasshoppers, deep murky water, being alone, and marriage.
It's less a fear, more an embarrassment.
I mean, walking down some isle in a church(or whatever floats your boat) with your whole family, plus your husband-to-be's whole damn family staring at you while you make one of the most (if not the most) important decisions of your life: eternal commitment. DUN DUN DUN!!
The idea of marriage is kind of scary in itself as well, no?
Legally binding yourself to one person for the rest of your life...!!(maybe even after?)
Divorce is pretty much taboo in my mind, something I never ever want to even consider.
Unless of course, he's some psychopath whose abusive and power-hungry. (I've pretty much seen every movie like that on lifetime or TNT to scare me shitless: Sleeping With The Enemy, Enough, Where The Heart Is...Fatal Attraction? lol. Although, most of the time the wife learns self-defense and ends up killing her abusive husband she tries to escape from earlier in the movie on "accident". "Yeah, he totally just fell from the second story onto that table.")
I think media has a lot to do with fear of commitment and marriage.
In my case, I don't really fear commitment per say, I just don't want an audience while I make said commitment.
Having said that, I recently decided on my stupid, girly dream.
Most girls want a fantastic wedding at a man-made heart shaped lake with dozens of red rose petals covering the floor, while they're brought to the alter in a magic, fairytale pumpkin horse carriage and then doves are released.
Now I don't know about you, but that's about the most ludicrous, cheese covered cornball thing I've ever heard.
I'm much more simple. :)
What is my girly dream then you ask?
The Engagement ring.
And not any engagement ring, a Tiffany's engagement ring.
The Tiffany Setting. <3
(Yes. I have the design picked out and everything.)
The funny thing is that I don't even wear jewelry.
I mean, something from Tiffany's I'd accept with a smile and open arms, but I don't really give a damn otherwise. (So boys, no jewelry unless it's from Tiffany's! Easy enough!)
I don't like super expensive things and I'm fairly easy to please.
And I'm not asking for an extravagent dress or wedding or cake.
All I want is that ring.
I never cared about Tiffany's, or even knew what was so special about it until two weeks ago when my sister saw a Tiffany's add and said, "That little blue box is every girls dream", which I immediately countered.
So then she got all excited and brought up the website and my mind was corrupted.
I always thought my sister's views on marriage were pretty shallow because all she seemed to care about were the material things, rather than the meaning behind them.
But her reasoning for the engagement ring was pretty true and made a lot of sense.
The ring is something that's going to remind you of your lifelong commitment to someone, so it should be extremely special and beautiful right?
I of course defended the guy in saying that it's not how fantastic the ring is, it's the thought and adoration that matters, which she retorted with the thought that I immediately guessed right out of her head: "I want you for the rest of my life, here's this dinky ring."
BAM! My innocence stolen right in front of my eyes!
Unlike my sister, I don't need an upgrade after a couple of years because one, I'm kinda sentimental and two, I'm sentimental.
I understand that these rings are pretty expensive and automatically bring on consternation for the fella, but look at it from my point of view!
It's not too much to ask for right?
If you know me, you know I'm not materialistic, so I won't start hording diamonds if you buy me one.
This may sound a bit bitchy, but like I said, it's my stupid girly dream.
I'm sure he won't object if he looks at it from my point of view.
At least, I'm hoping he won't.
Part Two:
Happy New Year!!
Here's hoping 2009 is the complete opposite of 2008, which couldn't have sucked more.
Aside from Barak Obama being elected as president. (Whoop whoop!)
I won't go into detail, but just know that 2008 was probably the worst year I've ever been through.
Everything bad that could have happened, did and then some.
On a lighter note, I made New Year's resolutions for the first time in about seven years!!
1. Weigh 110 pounds.
2. Read every book on my "Book List".
3. Visit University of Washington (cure any unconscious doubts)
4. Get a job and save money
5. Help around the house more
I'm definitely going to be adding to the list, but that's all I have down at the moment.
...
I'm way overdue for a trip to the movie theater.
Oh my goodness Emiri!! We share a fear!!
Actually, I'm afraid of a lot of things, some of which include spiders, grasshoppers, deep murky water, being alone, and marriage.
It's less a fear, more an embarrassment.
I mean, walking down some isle in a church(or whatever floats your boat) with your whole family, plus your husband-to-be's whole damn family staring at you while you make one of the most (if not the most) important decisions of your life: eternal commitment. DUN DUN DUN!!
The idea of marriage is kind of scary in itself as well, no?
Legally binding yourself to one person for the rest of your life...!!(maybe even after?)
Divorce is pretty much taboo in my mind, something I never ever want to even consider.
Unless of course, he's some psychopath whose abusive and power-hungry. (I've pretty much seen every movie like that on lifetime or TNT to scare me shitless: Sleeping With The Enemy, Enough, Where The Heart Is...Fatal Attraction? lol. Although, most of the time the wife learns self-defense and ends up killing her abusive husband she tries to escape from earlier in the movie on "accident". "Yeah, he totally just fell from the second story onto that table.")
I think media has a lot to do with fear of commitment and marriage.
In my case, I don't really fear commitment per say, I just don't want an audience while I make said commitment.
Having said that, I recently decided on my stupid, girly dream.
Most girls want a fantastic wedding at a man-made heart shaped lake with dozens of red rose petals covering the floor, while they're brought to the alter in a magic, fairytale pumpkin horse carriage and then doves are released.
Now I don't know about you, but that's about the most ludicrous, cheese covered cornball thing I've ever heard.
I'm much more simple. :)
What is my girly dream then you ask?
The Engagement ring.
And not any engagement ring, a Tiffany's engagement ring.
The Tiffany Setting. <3
(Yes. I have the design picked out and everything.)
The funny thing is that I don't even wear jewelry.
I mean, something from Tiffany's I'd accept with a smile and open arms, but I don't really give a damn otherwise. (So boys, no jewelry unless it's from Tiffany's! Easy enough!)
I don't like super expensive things and I'm fairly easy to please.
And I'm not asking for an extravagent dress or wedding or cake.
All I want is that ring.
I never cared about Tiffany's, or even knew what was so special about it until two weeks ago when my sister saw a Tiffany's add and said, "That little blue box is every girls dream", which I immediately countered.
So then she got all excited and brought up the website and my mind was corrupted.
I always thought my sister's views on marriage were pretty shallow because all she seemed to care about were the material things, rather than the meaning behind them.
But her reasoning for the engagement ring was pretty true and made a lot of sense.
The ring is something that's going to remind you of your lifelong commitment to someone, so it should be extremely special and beautiful right?
I of course defended the guy in saying that it's not how fantastic the ring is, it's the thought and adoration that matters, which she retorted with the thought that I immediately guessed right out of her head: "I want you for the rest of my life, here's this dinky ring."
BAM! My innocence stolen right in front of my eyes!
Unlike my sister, I don't need an upgrade after a couple of years because one, I'm kinda sentimental and two, I'm sentimental.
I understand that these rings are pretty expensive and automatically bring on consternation for the fella, but look at it from my point of view!
It's not too much to ask for right?
If you know me, you know I'm not materialistic, so I won't start hording diamonds if you buy me one.
This may sound a bit bitchy, but like I said, it's my stupid girly dream.
I'm sure he won't object if he looks at it from my point of view.
At least, I'm hoping he won't.
Part Two:
Happy New Year!!
Here's hoping 2009 is the complete opposite of 2008, which couldn't have sucked more.
Aside from Barak Obama being elected as president. (Whoop whoop!)
I won't go into detail, but just know that 2008 was probably the worst year I've ever been through.
Everything bad that could have happened, did and then some.
On a lighter note, I made New Year's resolutions for the first time in about seven years!!
1. Weigh 110 pounds.
2. Read every book on my "Book List".
3. Visit University of Washington (cure any unconscious doubts)
4. Get a job and save money
5. Help around the house more
I'm definitely going to be adding to the list, but that's all I have down at the moment.
...
I'm way overdue for a trip to the movie theater.
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